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Thursday, October 26, 2006

wHy?

why do you have to be so happy for someone's failure?
why do you laugh for their failure?
why do you need to compare your failure to other's failure?
why do you have to be so miserable?
why do you still hate those people who succeeded even though they don't deserve it?
why do you still carry the burden of hating those people who hated/hurted you?
why do you have to be so sensitive about everything?
......

i really don't know, i guess it's your nature... but if you'll make a statement, at least be specific about it...

why am i writing this stuff?

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

NeW hOpE, NeW LiGhT

after the pain and heartache i'm still here standing, still with the hope and aspiration of achieving my goal... to pass the CPA licensure exams...

yes, i failed the exam... reality slaps me hard... i've proven first hand, that failing really sucks... just imagine the people praying and expecting something good from you but just letting them down because you failed and carried with it their hopes and dreams...

but against my struggles, i'm very thankful to the Lord because He surrounded me with people that understands my situation and had always been there supporting me... i'm thankful for my family, my ever supportive girlfriend, my friends and special shout-outs to some of the individuals who had encouranged me directly and indirectly... let me quote some of the things they said:
  • sir paeng in his blog: "Contrary to popular belief, ang resulta ng board exam ay hindi naman validation ng galing o talino ng isang tao. ang mga bagay na iyon ay mas mapapatunayan sa ibang aspeto ng buhay. Sa halip, isa siyang marker na nagsasabi kung puwede nang iwan ang nakaraan. Puwede nang iwan ang baggage na dala ng kursong kinuha nung college at puwede nang mag-move on sa kung saan man ang gusto nang puntahan."
  • atty. malvar: "hindi mahalaga kung ilang beses kang bumagsak, ang mahalaga ay kung paano ka babangon."
  • sir peƱamante: "eh ano naman kung 50 years old ka na nakapasa... ano mas pipiliin mo, pumasa ka ng 21 tapos hanggang 25 lang pala buhay mo o 50 tapos lampas 100 yung buhay mo?"
  • sir agamata: "magiging CPA ka din, hindi ngalang ngayon"
  • mama: "ok lang yan... it's part of the game"
  • jing: "ok lang yan, may mas magandang plano si GOD sa'yo, hindi lang siguro para sa'yo yung October Exam."

because of them, i still can smile and had found a new hope in pursuing my recently shattered dream... right now, i'm gathering those pieces and trying to start a new and better me... i know that i have to work double time now, i have to prove not only to my family but especially to myself, that i can do whatever i desire... i guess, i have to change my gameplan from now on... i really don't want to be a burden to my family anymore so i've decided to start hunting for a job... i want to continue my review but at my own expense... so in case somebody's reading this, a little referral would really be appreciated...

again, thanks to all those who easen up the pain and agony that i felt... i'll make sure that i'll be very prepared when i take the May 2007 CPA board exam... (kahit si Mrs. Cabrerra pa ang magbigay nung 7 subjects)... thanks for all the prayers...